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...so, I had gotten alfredo for lunch and I also make sure the sauce is somewhat watery because I like it more like a soup than anything else. Anyway, I had been carrying it and some of it had spilled on my hand, so I took it back to the kitchen and before I could grab it again, Mum had picked up with a dishcloth and had started carrying it into my room, thinking she was helping. I asked her more than once to let me do it instead, mainly because I didn't want her to get burned either. She sat it down on my desk, next to my computer and she accidentally spilt it everywhere...

...so, because I knew that it would take a minute or two to clean up and it was rude to just go randomly silent on Erica, I said brb because Mum said, "It won't kill Erica to wake 5 minutes." {GOD I was soooooooo close to retaliating back for that one but I kept quiet}...and, yeah, as Mum and I cleaned up, I feared that Erica thought I was trying to ignore her on purpose or something, so I tried to hurry up and get settled again. The moment I did and brought up the convo to apologise for suddenly saying brb, I saw that Erica had gone offline and had decided to go to bed...

...perkele...I only wanted to help and be there...and just because of one stupid mistake...not Mum's or Erica's, but my own for always insisting on soupy alfredo that is always hot no matter how long I leave it to cool, I won't speak to her today...and she really needs her friends right now...fuck...I want her to come back...I want to talk to her...