Sometimes I kinda hate being right

I was completely unsure if I should post this at all but oh well. Here goes. Hopefully it doesn't turn out long-winded.

LOL, I knew it...I knew that she found me annoying...I've always known she was blunt but finally, I know for certain, she finds me dead annoying and, to quote her, "thick as a brick". And I have proof too. *sighs* I wish I'd been wrong. I really wish I could have just said I was paranoid and being stupid, because then it would mean I wasn't unknowingly irritating the fuck out of her, but apparently, that's exactly what I do, and because I do it unknowingly, it's even more annoying. Because I'm oblivious. I can't help that I'm not psychic, that I don't really know her or know what really irritates her. I know now the main thing is just me. I've been told I'm annoying by a lot people but this time...it kinda hurt...I guess it was because I wanted her to like me and I don't know how to stop being annoying if it's something unintentional...

And then I got slightly miffed because she told me how I really feel. No. Just no. I really don't like it when people decide for me how I feel about something or someone. They have no idea what's in my heart. Only I do. I know what I feel. I'm not as ignorant and stupid as people perceive me to be and it upsets me a little that anyone seems to think that. I know that not everyone will like and I know that she tries really hard to like me, mainly because she said it outright, and in return, I try to do the same, to be a good friend, and I really do get concerned about her at times, I really do wish her the best in life and all that...so I guess that's why it hurt...I knew that I got on her nerves sometimes...I just didn't realise it was all the time...

I know she doesn't hate me but that doesn't make it any less easier to deal with. This problem really is quite trivial and insanely so in comparison to other problems that someone I am close to has to deal with at the present time {and has been trying to deal with for a while =(}, but I thought I'd just get it off my chest. Kinda ironic that someone I didn't really like all that much, and am probably still not all that fond but like most times anyway, managed to hurt me ever so slightly with her words.

I just...I know I'm not crazy. And I don't appreciate being called insane by someone who seriously thought they had a chance with Alexi Laiho. *sighs and shakes her head*

On a happier note, my birthday is in a few days and hopefully I'll be able to use the money from Thomas and Vanessa to put a nice iPod touch on laybuy {my brother has one and he works it just fine for someone who is completely technologically illiterate}. I also found out today that Erica got in touch with an old friend who is being friendly and, maybe, sometime in the future, she'll be able to see said friend's little boy that she adores and loves to pieces and hasn't seen in years. I hear he's a cutie <3 And lol I'm doing it again. It's nice though, how one thought can suddenly put a smile back on my face =)

Oh wells lol This is getting insanely long and pointless now. I'll shut up now ^___^ At least I'm in a better mood once more :3