I'm surprised how much it hurt and that it hurt at all considering I'm so used to hearing it now. Being told by Stacey not to talk to her about Nightwish and/or Twilight just...hurt for some reason. I know I talk about them a lot but still. Everyone in this family gets pissy when someone likes what they like - but I'd give anything if my family, or just one of them, liked what I liked. They talk about things that I'm not interested in which further increases this odd gap between us, which is then fueled by their instinctive action of ignoring me. It'd just be nice if one of them could say "Sure, I'd love to go to a Nightwish concer wih you when the time comes" or "I agree. Tuomas truly is a musical genius" or even participate in my Twilight rants with me.
They all have a connection with each other and don't want it. There are very few people who I can spaz to about Nightwish or Twilight and usually those people are already well informed.
*sighs* Oh well. At least I have them; my real family. Don't get me wrong. I love my family {some individuals more than others} but it just sucks that I don't have anything in common with them. None of them are willing to even listen anymore, let alone understand. They don't bother to learn why Tuomas is so perfect to me and Nightwish so amazing and fascinating, why I like Children of Bodom when it's heavy for anyone living within a 5 mile radius, why I immerse myself in Twilight and other fantasy based books, why Disney dominates my movie collections, why I like the Labyrinth when it's outdated and kind of creepy. They don't bother to learn of my escapism.
It upsets me a bit, thought hardly surprised me, when I spoke to my sister Vanessa with some pop garbage playing in the background and she said to me as long as a song has a good beat, the lyrics don't matter. She said no one listens to the lyrics because they don't care. It's that kind of thinking that a) makes me appreciate my instinctive reactions and ability to look into the words and find a meaning or two to a particular song and b) makes me respect songwriters in general, especially Tuomas. It's nice to know that some songs aren't being wasted on the ears of the ignorant.
/pointless rant.
...I miss Erica rigt now. Wish I could cuddle her <3
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*hugs* I'm sorry that they treat you like that, hon. I know it's not the same, but you'll always have me to blabber away at about anything that you want (I know I give you shit about Twilight constantly, but it is a good story and I *do* like it...and I will always listen when you want to rant), even if I am already "well informed" about Nightwish, etc.
ReplyDeleteAs far as Vanessa saying that lyrics don't matter, that's probably because, in shitty pop music that has no substance, they don't really matter. Who cares what someone writes about hos and getting drunk all the time, or shaking their booty like a milkshake? (Those are probably really lame examples, lol, but I don't listen to pop crap! xP). Metal is one of the few genres that actually, consistently, has lyrics that go deeper than "I love you, you broke my heart, now I'm going to cry and then fuck your best friend" sort of thing. If there's nothing deeper behind the words, there's no point in looking, you know? Aside from the general "heaviness" of the music, I think that's one of the reasons why metal doesn't really appeal to a large cross section of the population (not like pop, rap or country, for example); you have to actually *think* about the lyrics if you really want to understand what's being said.
*breathes* Okay, sorry...lol...didn't mean to go off on my own little rant. *hugs again* Don't let them get you down, Ebs <3
*smiles* Kiitos...that really does make me feel a lot better. I knew I could count on you. You always know what to say or do *hugs* Kiitos <3
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